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About Me!

I am an as-of-yet-unnamed baby angel. I am 5 or 5000 years old, take your pick (in this house we follow anime rules). i am completely healed from every mental illness that i've ever had. this website will be incoherent because i do whatever the fuck i want all the time. right now the thing i am doing is webdesign. so be patient while i make this website not look like shit.

My other hobbies include...

MY FURF*G ART

For years and years and years, i've been drawing. every artist these days likes to tote about drawing since they were a baby, but let's be so honest, nobody takes it serious until middle school, until it becomes a real identity to attach to. So yes, i picked up a crayola marker at age 4, and i drew my fruity little emo wolves in middle school. in high school i started pretending that clout was important so i stopped drawing anything at all, besides the odd barbie-doll-faced humanoid in a static pose. and then when i graduated i moved out and i realized god damn being a furry was based as fuck. i've been here ever since.

My relationship to art has been massive ups and downs over the years, not just in terms of skills but the way it made me feel mentally. i've recently come to the realization that my (CURED, by the way) mental illnesses probably originated from a way younger age than i thought. seriously, what do you mean depression and self-loathing wasn't just a normal 14 year old thing? like, it kinda just feels standard with being a teenager, a tale as old as time, you start self-loathing at that age. Okay, tangent aside, to make a long story short, my art was an important way for me to gain attention when i was younger -- "Oh, you're so good at drawing for your age!" "You're a young Michelangelo!" And then i come to find out some people might be better than me? or even YOUNGER? DUDE WHAT THE FUCK! my skill has been and only will be important so long as nobody else has it. boo hoo wah wah common bitchy """gifted kid syndrome""" shit. anyway, the point i'm trying to make is that sometimes i wanted to kill myself because of my art not looking the way i want.

It sounds so ridiculous in hindsight, and probably because i am on the peak of one of many peaks and troughs that i have historically always had. i always go "Oh my art is so awesome right now, i will never want to try to kill myself over art again" only to reach a point where i go "i cant believe i ever disillusioned myself into thinking art is worth my time". LUCKILY! I have zero mental illness anymore. So i believe that, even if i am ever not splooging on the screen a the sight of my own drawings, i will always at the very least be okay with my drawings. 5 or 5000 i'm too damn old to be weeping and crying over a fucking fruity ass drawing.

MY FURF*G SUITS

OKAY, YES, THERE'S MORE FURRY SHIT THAT'S IMPORTANT TO MY LIFE. This is a pretty recent obsession. i mean, things come and go naturally, but i've grown such an unexpected and fast attachment to fursuit making that i'm pretty sure will stick around for a while.

currently, some scum ass broke bitch took my money for a fursuit commission that my stupid ass thought would fill my void of identity. hopefully her dad is now dead. anyways, on year two of a commission that was supposed to take 3 months, i was angry enough to be like "there's no fucking way fursuit making is THIS hard". so i did a bit of research and counting on my fingers and it turns out that it would literally cost half the price for me to do it all by myself, and because I'M making it i can rely on a simple project not taking half a decade. as i started making it piece by piece and learning more and more, i realized god damn i love doing this. i'm still pretty new to it all, but i'm obsessed with making physical art that i am pretty much forced to look at every day. i'm having a lot of fun with it. i don't have any completed heads yet, but ive made several tails. i'm very excided to finish up my projects.

MY OCS

I promise this isn't just furries now. any art f*g has an extensive history with making their own ocs that started with erin hunter's warriors, homestuck, wolves of the beyond, etc., and obviously i'm no exception. i've been making idiot stories since middle school. when i became an adult and before i was cured from all my mental illness, i was buying a lot of ocs on toyhou.se to fill the void. now that i am not bogged by mortal chemistry, i still buy a lot of them (because i'm rich now) but it's just a hobby and not a coping mechanism. and perhaps sometimes i use it to flex. there is an undeniable bloodthirst i get when someone puts their 1k image sona up for sale on a medical emergency at a steep discount.